competition week.

it's competition week!!!
ahh!!

which means, this week no more fried, oily, sweet food for me. plus caffeine, chocolates, chips and crackers.

extra care to the voice and extra practice for stamina and dance!

wish me luck!

blah.

singing and dancing is gonna be a challenge but i'm gonna make sure i do it well.
i needa slim down and get healthy, so i need mentality.
i've been saying this so many times but this time i really wanna mean it.

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(a work of utter random ness)

Someday i know you'll take me by your hand
Bring me around, spin me around
into the waiting arms of fate
but i wanna be free of this life
fate isn't gonna be in my way
i'll carve a path of my own

and when that day comes
i will find my way
be it crossroads or deserts or forests
i will find my way
find my way

hi everyone in the world.

saw this blog today and found these pictures!!

super cute right!!!!! i was like OMG they're damm cute.
anw, have vocals tmr and shall be thick skinned and ask laoshi if i can still join the crew withour Project UP.
also, i wanna show everyone my amateur art piece for VA exhibition sometime soon.

it's ALMOST done so wait up when it's really finished i'll post it up for you!

anw, in AJC, by facilitating FOL you get this GOOD STUDENT NOTICE from the VP. i got it today from mdm han and wanted to laugh my head off. in ccks i MIGHT have been a good student, but in AJC, no way. hahahhahhaha.
i was laughing abt it the entire day esp about the parts where everybody can't believe that im a "good" student.

anw, that's all i'll say for now.
xoxo
pamela

sorry!

seems like i've been neglecting you~~
some stuff recently so read headers!

PW RESULTS
got back pw results yesterday. got a B so i was kinda like whatever since there's nothing much i can do about it.
don't think too much though. i'm not upset or anything.

K HIPHOP
was early for k hiphop yesterday. AGAIN. super early~~
so ended up talking to laoshi, carmen and jojo. :D
then, laoshi mentioned if i wanted to join PROJECT U.P. cycle 2. i want to, but~~~ can't dance that well~~~
if not i confirm join de. hahahhahahhahhaha. wanna join CJ Crew~~
anw, might be joining a competition for vocals again so hope by then i'm no longer nervous~~
love CJSOPA~~ saranghae~~

efficiency.

went to school to conduct FOL today, and that's all i did today.
so wasted. wasted a day of time.
anw, FOL was okay i guess. my group was the most efficient.
we finished everything the fastest.
quite nice to mix with people i guess, and my group was a group of PANTHER-ians (new word).
only sad thing of today, celine laoshi wasn't in school. the lousy school changed plans last minute. and i was looking forward to finding laoshi and jojo.

it's like i really want to be part of their group in CJ, but i know i can't cos i ain't got the looks or talent. HOWEVER, i think it's much better than before i took vocals.
anw, i have this new motivation to learn new girl group dances and i might try by starting with "Run Devil Run" or "Bang!" or "Lupin"
all the super nice girl group songs i'm currently addicted to.

gonna eat out with mum and cut my hair tmr.
plus buy YB dvd. $50. hahhahha

HAWT,

yunho's so darn HAWTTTT. love him!!
wish i could go to his tribute to MJ concert in Seoul to see him.
he sang in ENGLISH!! plus him dancing = ULTIMATE HAWTNESS!!!

you got me going crazy, wanna be your baby~              -AshleyTisdale

so true when it comes to yunho. love him completely.

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i shall go study thinking of him all the time. hahahha.
my motivation to read econs

blond-ed out.

was being blonde and bimbotic today. according to mel.
cos of some kinda dumb comments i made.

anway, i think i should explain my actions for one thing i did today.
i bragged about my common test results (though there's nothing to brag about) to this guy in class.
i feel bad, but i can't stand him showing off like how he ALWAYS does in class.
it's like intolerable if i have to stand him for 2 whole years.
plus, he was giving smug faces to a friend. so shouldn't i let him have a taste of his own medicine?
correct me if i did the wrong thing, but i really can't hold such acts by him anymore.

why dong bang is better.

was talking to shir when it came to mind why i love dong bang after so long.

1. YUNHO's hot bod and dancing skills. plus his serious face. = HAWTTTT!
2. JAEJOONG'S pure feminine beauty and ability to do housework. = an attribute i'd love guys to have
3. CHANGMIN's pure cuteness for being the youngest. = SUPER CUTTIE!
4. JUNSU's childishness and innocence. = CUUTE!
5. YOOCHUN's coolness, awesome rapping skills and the way he speaks in english. = COOOL~

isn't that like the most awesome list ever?

you don't get perfect people together by chance. you get them when they see your beautiful aura. hahahhahaha.
and omg. do i love all of them.

change.

aircon im my homeroom now. yay!

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sometimes when girls dream, they wish they're wishes will come true.
but other times, they awake to reality that sometimes fairytales might not be the best for them.

if i say i''m giving up from one failure, you're wrong.
i'm gonna give my all to prove all those who doubt me wrong one day.

i'm learning.

hi everyone.
i didn't get into AJI finals, but i learnt my mistakes from the audition to further prep me for other times.
i was too nervous and notes when off.
i feel so bad for celine cos she trained me and went thru the song with me so much, BUT i still let her down.
however, for me, this is a takeaway lesson.
I NEED MORE COURAGE.

HOWEVER, i'm not giving up cos of this one failure. i wanna improve my voice further (cos it sucks to me) and then when i'm sure of myself try another comp. i'm not gonna give up now cos it's my dream and to live it, i need courage, perserverence and stamina. so in the meantime, whenever i'm free you might just hear my recordings i'll be putting up or free to send to you people.

xoxo, your lady superstar.